A Success!

I had a great date last night. I've known this guy for about three years. He's always come off as sane, stable, and just an all around good person. Normally, I'm really good at picking out people's faults and complaining about them. Those are usually people I can't see my self with. However, I don't really see any major faults. It doesn't seem like there's anything he does that I can see myself not being able to live with.

All things permitting, I could marry this dude. I should've dated him a long time ago when I had the chance. I find myself very lucky to have another shot at it.

I like the fact that he already has his career. This is what he does, what he wants to be, and he does it instead of complaining about hating his job and not doing anything about it.

He's very understanding. But you don't want to piss him off, either.

His birthday is the day after mine and we share the same astrological sign. I have to admit that I am quite attracted to some of my own qualities that I see in him (I.e. The ability to reason, the ability to control, etc...). Lol! Is that technically narcissism? Lol.

We're going out again next weekend and then after our birthdays. I think after those, it will be time for a family dinner at our hacienda. That should be... Interesting. I hope my brother is there.

I Went on a Date!

I found someone on Plentyof Fish.com that I could actually talk to. He's cool. I love his personality. I can laugh with him. BUT I have a few issues that I will be talking to him about tonight. They make things odd...

1. He LIED about his height! Lied, lied, lied, lied, lied! I'm 5'6" or 5'7". In my boots, I might be 5'9". This guy said on his profile that he was 5'7". He said on the phone that he was 5'7". He is not 5'7". He's shorter than my ex fiance. I mean, when I stood next to him in my heels, I saw the top of his head. Two inches does NOT make that much difference. That makes the dynamic awkward.

2. He is VERY small statured. I've always been small statured, but even if I lost all my baby weight plus 20 pounds, I would still not be as small as this dude. Another factor that contributes to the awkward dynamic.

3. I'm getting the feeling that he may be a little needy. He needs quite a bit of assurance and wants to know where he stands with me constantly. I think he expected me to call him this morning. If I don't want to call as soon as I wake up, then I'm not going to. Do I need an excuse? I mean, I don't do anything special. I'm not talking to anyone else.

I'm mentally exhausted. I want to try the dynamic, but if he doesn't like it when I say I need time for myself, then it probably won't work. I have a baby... That's enough of someone clinging to me and I like him. He's handsome, smart, and knows what I'm talking about without any communication. My baby and number one man =)

Leave

At first, you were great

I liked our second first date.

But then you warmed up to me

Your true colors, I began to see.

You reminded me of my baggage.

But really, it was your nose that did the damage.

I knew something wasn't right

When you took me out the next time.

I knew you would do me wrong,

Just like in a Carrie Underwood song.

No one had to tell me.

My gut just said "Leave!"

You said you liked me from the start.

But eight years ago you broke my heart.

This time it wasn't right for me.

I just had to flee.

Your friends all left you and got married.

It seems to me like some baggage you carry.

I can't be your bff from day one.

I was just looking for some fun.

The clinginess was too intense.

You always needed reassurance.

Your nose was hideous.

Do you know the term 'hilarious'?

I could feel you would do me wrong,

Like in a Carrie Underwood song.

I could just see

You weren't in the cards for me.

You liked me from the start.

But eight years ago, you broke my heart.

Back then I couldn't see

The signs telling me to leave.